Enjoyment vs Future Enjoyment (Part 2)

For me, cashing in on Deferred Enjoyment has always been a tough proposition. Why? Because I'm concerned it will make me seem selfish. I've convinced myself that I don't deserve it yet. I need to keep grinding, keep building, keep being of service.

However, I can abide by this "I don't deserve it yet" mentality all the way to the grave. And along the way, I can lose the opportunity to engage in the relationships & activities that I truly love today.

I've realized that it's worth considering, "What can't be delayed?"

I can't stockpile relationships. Family, friends, & lovers won't wait around for me, as I save up my enjoyment of their presence for some future date. Relationships require investment too. Other people are constantly rebalancing their own equation. So, it's important that I factor this into my Enjoyment vs Future Enjoyment decision-making.

I won't have the ability to do everything I want to do in my life upon retirement. If I'm lucky enough to make it to 80, then I likely won't be going solo backpacking in Tibet or heli skiing in BANFF. My body won't be able to bear the intensity of those activities. (Of course, there's always the chance I'm an Attia-inspired BAMF at 80, but do I want to take that risk?)

So, like all things in life, it's about balance. Cashing in on enjoyment today while saving enough for the life I want to live tomorrow. Like all things in life, it's about making this distribution vs investment decision from a place of honest alignment.

The hardest part is confronting the fact that I'm a solo GP in deciding what's "right" for me.